Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Story of Love pt.2

So, the next day after I returned home from NY. Jared and I were texting, it was January 5th, and I said " i am committed to getting to know you" and he said " i am committed to getting to know you, i guess its official?" " will you be me girlfriend?" and yes he said "me" instead of "my" haha. I was without words, I couldnt believe that I was about to have a boyfriend, and a good one at that. I had no idea that day would change my life forever. I was Jared's girlfriend. . except for one MINOR detail. He had to ask my father for permission to date me, call it old school, or retarted. . I think its pretty amazing and very respectful. Thankfully Jared comes from basically the same background as I do, and asking my father wasnt totally bizzare to him. So he called my father the next day January 6th, and obviously my dad said yes. It was really strange that he did say yes actually, my dad is a nazi when it comes to boys. He usually is very protective and says no at first, but he knew, just like i did, that Jared was special!

OH OH, another cool thing is that, that monday that I met him I was supposed to go back home because my boss needed my back for work, but monday morning she called and said I could stay an extra week, I was bummed at the time because I needed that money for bills, little did I know I would meet Jared THAT very night. On top of that when I got home from NY, i had missed a week of work and had bills mind you, when i got home my bills were PAID! NO LIE. . . you're probably just as shocked as I was, but someone had annonomously paid my bills. How cool is God? VERY!!

So January 6th, 2010 is our ONE YEAR! It has been the fastest most crazy year of my life, and I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with Jared. I cannot believe I finally met the boy I had been praying for even when I was 10 years old. :) I found my one true love. I would say Im pretty lucky, some people never find true love, and thats a sad thing!

I pray everyday that everyone who doesnt know what it feels like to be in love, feels it someday. I want everyone to have what I have with Jared. :) It truly is a feeling you cannot describe and you have to just experience it for yourself.

So its almost been a year, and we have definitely had our ups and downs, I mean what couple doesnt? When we first started dating we really didnt fight or anything, and I thought that meant we were a great couple, boy was I dumb. You are supposed to fight. Those couples who say they never fight are either lying, or they are not in a true and honest relationship. When you take 2 completely different people and put them into a relationship, you are going to have some conflicts. It what you do with those conflicts that will form you as a couple. How will you let those fights form you? Will you let it make you stronger? Or tear you down?

I have much more to say on this subject, duh! But I have singing practice now. Ill be back to write more at a later time.

til next time. . . Jaci

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Story of Love

It has been almost a year since I met the man I'm going to marry. It was dec 28th, 2008 when I first saw him. We were at the church that his family and my family attended. We were both home on christmas break and had no intention of meeting ANYONE. It had been a year since I broke up with my serious boyfriend, and I had finally got to the point where I was ok with myself, and comfortable alone. I had started to have this great confidence, and didnt need a boy to define me anymore. . I had started to really focus on school and changed my priorities and desires, and I guess thats all God was waiting for, because soon after my heart changed, I met Jared. So we saw each other at church, I sat right behind him. Little did I know all the women in my family ( aunt, grandmother, sister, mother) were all checking him out thinking how cute he was, and how weird it would be if I started dating him. You have to understand our church is filled with maybe 5 families total, so the chances of me meeting my husband at this church were impossible. . so i thought. . . :)
Come to find out he was terrified to come talk to me, so thats why I say the 28th was when i first SAW him, there was no official meeting, haha. He said I was too pretty for him and was scared to even approach me, how cute! Anyways, thank God for texting, such a less embarrassing way to meet a person :)haha. So we texted a little bit that sunday, and I couldnt help but drool over how cute I thought he was and how random it was, that there was a guy around my age at this tiny tiny church. I had never seen him in my life, and we have apparently been going to the same church for 3 years. Since we both are away at college, we must have come home at different times or something, although he said he had seen me before the 28th, I just never saw him, oops. I guess that goes to show you God has his perfect timing, and his timing is the best!!
So the next day came around and I was very sick, but my sister kept pressuring me to go to her friend Isaacs house to hang out for awhile. Now Isaac is Jareds older brother, I dont know if I mentioned this but Jared is my boyfriend, haha. So she kept begging me to go with her over to isaacs house because she wanted to see Jared, she liked him!!!! I was not going to go until the last minute. I am so happy I finally decided to go :)
I got to Isaacs house and I walked in and couldnt stop staring at this huge guy. He is 6'5 and I am 5'3, so you can imagine the crick in my neck after about an hour of staring, haha. I thought he was even cuter than the day before. I was smitten I guess you could say. So as the night went on, I was still very sick, so I just sat and watched everyone hang out, and play games and such. Since I kept starting Jared kept waving at me, it was so awkward, but I just couldnt seem to pull my eyes off of him. I had this feeling that I was meant to meet him, for whatever reason.
I ended up going upstairs because I felt way to sick. I layed down on this couch, and 5 minutes later, Jared shows up. He said he had to " go the bathroom", but there was a working bathroom downstairs :). He sat on the couch, and we started talking, and ended up talking all through the night, until 10am the next day. It ended up being about 11 hours that we just talked and talked and talked, and we really learned so much about each other, and that night I knew he would be my boyfriend someday. God had sent me this guy who had totally exceeding my expectations. It was the coolest night ever. The next day we texted like every minute, no lie, the texts were 9:21 9:22 9:23 9:24, the phone never left my hand. We talked about how awesome God is and how awesome it was that we had met each other, and how much we were IN LIKE already. The sad part about this new found relationship was that I had to leave in only 5 short days to retun back to school in MA, and he had to go back to VA. This was going to be the best week of our lives, and yet the saddest day was approaching.
We had hung out all week long, and he came to my house, and we went to the mall with my brothers, and on friday of that week was our "first date", we just went out as friends, and didnt really think of it as a date, but we went to see yes man with Jim carey, and then went to my favorite place ever MCdONALDS!!! It was so funny, after the movie we were both so hungry, but were too scared to mention McDonalds because we didnt wanna seem cheap to each other, but it ended up seeping out that it was both our favorite place to eat, I know so gross, but we love it. STILL! After mcDonalds, we went back to his house were we shared our first kiss. I had never had that kind of kiss in my life. It was a foot popping kiss. I swear I stopped breathing for a minute straight. I knew then I would marry this kid someday, he was special for sure.
So sunday came along, it was the day I would have to leave :( We went to church and it was so different than the first sunday we saw each other, our families were talking, all of our siblings were interacting, it was like we had known each other for years, and it had only been a week. So we said our sad goodbyes and didnt know where this would take us. We werent dating, we knew we liked each other, but how would things fall into place? would we date? how soon? would my dad like him? There was so many pressing questions in my head.I was on cloud 88 though :)

unfortunately I must go clean my house now, this week is crazy for my mom, We are having people over for christmas, and she has a LOOONG list. So I must go, but I will finish this story a bit later. . stay tuned!

til next time. . . Jaci

Mothers & Daughters

So this morning I woke up to my mother and sister yelling back and forth at each other. I hate when I wake up to this. My mother and sister are so different and it usually causes them to fight. My sister is a very strong and bold individual, she doesnt take crap from anyone, and really only does what she wants. She is a good fighter, but a good lover as well. She easily takes advantage of people just because of her personality alone. On the other hand, my mother is the most selfless person I know. She always does everything for everyone. She is the glue to our house, and although I am upset with her right now, I really dont have anything too negative to say about her, but since she is such a strong lover, she too is a strong fighter. So as you see we have some complicated personalities here, as many of your houses probably do to. All I can say is that at the end of the day you know that you love each other, and although you fight really really hard, and cut each other down and say things you may not mean, you love way harder! So if you are struggling today with a family problem, just know that you are not alone, and that if you just take a deep breath and realize that you love each other beyond words, maybe you can sit down and work things out. Whether you are wrong, or they are wrong, you both love each other and want the best for each other in the end, so skip the fighting and go to the loving.

til next time. . . Jaci

Starting out

My name is Jaci. I am 21. I have been a writer at heart for most of my life, and I have written poems, started to write a few books, and I just really have a lot to say. I recently heard about blogging ( I know what you're thinking, where has she been? under a rock?). But I thought it would be a cool thing to do seeing as I have many opinions and love to write, and inspire and dream. So starting out I guess I should tell you a little bit about myself, and my stand on things.

I was born and raised in a christian home. We went to church every sunday, bascially every day the church doors were open, we were there. I come from a family of 6. I am the oldest of 4, there is my sister Kati who is 20, brother Josh, 18, and brother Matt, 15. My parents are still together, and have been married almost 24 years I believe ( dont quote me on that). We grew up hearing about God, and having good morals instilled in us. We lived in foxboro massachusetts for a good chunk of our childhood, until my parents decided we would be moving to a little town called Lakemont NY. I was 13 when we moved. We began working for a group home for troubled teenagers, and that is where we would remain until I was 18. It was interesting to say the least, Ill get more into that at a later blog. My parents resigned from there about 3 years ago. At that time I was graduated from highschool and decided to move out and back to foxboro where I had grown up. I lived there for 2 years, and now I am back home, and bored as ever. I am a jr @ keuka college, and I love it there, but seeing as we are on break for 2 months, I wanted to keep myself busy. So blogging seemed like the answer.

I will be posting new blogs as often as I can, or as new things come up. This is really for my entertainment, so if you enjoy my writings, I look at it as a bonus.

til next time . . . Jaci